This morning I woke up to yet another rainy and grey day in Rijeka. The first thought which crossed my mind at the moment was ‘oh I can’t wait for the year to pass so I can move back to Zagreb’. It was 8 am.
Then I went to the kitchen where I was faced with the calendar which says May 2nd, with number 1 crossed. I started to think about two huge deadlines I have for my Academy lectures, all coming up in a couple of days. I said to myself again ‘oh my, I can’t wait for this month and then semester to end so I can get rid of all those projects I don’t really care about.’
And then I stopped.
What the hell was I doing to myself?
I got so caught up in things I don’t like about but cannot avoid doing them which are making me feel weird and nervous that I had started to take my days for granted and lived for the future. Seriously, for the future I don’t even know.
The worst of all is, I know that so many of us are guilty of the same stupid thing. And that's why I'm writing this post.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and headed back to bed. I decided to shut it all down, to make myself completely unavailable to those silly thoughts. No more negativity, no more worrying. Because there will always be unwanted assignments and things to be done along with tough or annoying people or just any kind of situation which makes you feel like you want to flash forward time to summer days at the sandy beach. When that happens, just stop everything. Look for those little things in a day which bring a smile to your face.
A sunny morning (which I haven’t seen in days and is probably partly responsible for feeling so blue)
Your dog and your man who are always there for you
A cup of tea
A hot shower
A good book / movie (or both)
Working on your blog
Pizza / ice-cream and lazy TV nights
Walking your dog
Talking to a friend
All the things that interest you
… (feel free to add some more)
And just decide that nothing or no one is gonna take those little moments from you. Start enjoying your life and have a great time along the way. Do what you love and try really extra hard, because each day has 24 hours and there's actually plenty of time for everything.
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