Lately I've been thinking about how this place would be different if I weren't here under my real name and surname. Before owning Smile, Snap, Sparkle I've had a few blogs that were mostly focused on a written word and a stream of consciousness and boy I adored them. To this day those types of blog are still amongst my favourites and after several weeks of thinking and feeling weird and out of place I've realised where the problem lies.
The fact is, I miss writing.
And if my blog isn't happy then I'm not happy.
So that's the reason why I've been so quiet for the past couple of days. Since I'm a constant work in progress it only makes sense that my blog is the same. We grow. Evolve. Learn from mistakes. Know our priorities and things we love.
This little place has been my loyal companion for almost three years and sometimes I feel like it doesn't represent me in a way I want it to.
* I almost never write about films and filmmaking and that's what I do for living. And do I even have to mention how much I love my job?
* I have so many insane fashion related stories connected to certain items that I've never shared, but always wanted.
* I love writing so much but have listened too many advices which said: 'Don't write too much 'cause no one reads that on blogs anyway.' Seriously, that's so stupid. Beyond stupid.
There's only one thing that will always stay the same.
Recently I got in a really cool conversation about photography and somehow it went in a direction of this blog and its outfit posts. A person told me: 'Why don't you shoot your personal style posts? I mean you're a photographer after all and I bet those self-portraits would look amazing.' I would lie if I said I didn't thought about it, but I dismissed the idea because those posts have always been a team work between me and my boyfriend and we've always had so much fun creating them. I wouldn't trade that feeling for editorial looking self-portraits of me in my daily outfits. I would photograph other people, but have absolutely no interest in shooting myself. I never wanted to be a model anyways.
The problem with everyone being able to know your name kinda limits you in writing whatever you want. Or maybe not, sometimes it's just a matter of leaving some fears behind.
What do you think?