Sunday, September 25, 2016

Weekly Notes: Director's Cut


I feel like it’s been forever since the last time I wrote and published a post on the blog. The thing is, I’m not used to taking longer breaks from it but sometimes life gets in a way and there’s pretty much nothing you can do about it.

This time I was editing one biospeleological documentary about the underworld of the super famous and amazingly beautiful National park Krka and I literally had no time for anything else until it was finished - and then this weekend came and the only thing I could possibly think of was ‘I need some time off’ because next week is gonna be even more insane due to the fact that I’m starting to write a huge script for a project that’s currently in preproduction phase.

While I was becoming one with my chair and table during countless hours spent editing, I had all these blog posts ideas but I simply had no time to carry them out. 

My days were crazy intense - I would wake up around 8 in the morning, take Frida out for a walk, turn the computer on and work, work, work until I’d realize I was hungry. Then I would take a short break from the bug world and an hour later return back to my computer, where I would sit and work until around midnight.

How glamorous, right?

The day before the whole process was done and while I was waiting for a friend to send me some animations for the film, I finally stepped out of the house and decided to hit the town to get the feeling of the real world again. 
And there it was - Autumn, without me even noticing it before. I wore layers for the first time in months and realised that my entire closet is still stuck in the crazy-hot-summer vibe because I didn’t have time to rearrange it. 

The next day, after the job was successfully finished, I went on an insane shopping spree even though I could barely stand on my feet from the exhaustion. And then I slept for two days straight.

Today is Sunday and the weather feels like Summer all over again. 

I got out of bed pretty late, Frida was sunbathing on the couch and as I started making plans for the upcoming week, I knew that it’s time I return to the blog again. Not because I felt ready, but because I really missed it and deep down knew that if I prolong this break I might never return to blogging again and that’s really not what I want.

I have all these thoughts about the future of this place but right now I don’t feel I could elaborate them quite well but the thing is I’ve changed and that’s gonna leave a big mark on the blog. 


I thought about it yesterday while stuffing myself with tuna salad, I started this journey while I was on a huge crossroad and felt lost and confused and full of dreams, wishes but also huge disappointments and fears. I searched for myself and the life I truly want to live and tried so many different things along the way, convinced that some of them were most definitely the paths I needed to take in my life only to realize that some of those steps were taken solely out of fear. 

Even my personal style on a daily basis didn’t represent me in the way I really wanted it to. I needed to regain my confidence and return to myself again, which is something that’s happened over the last few months and now everything is different.

The last step was to finally face my lifeless closet (I’m kinda exaggerating here but in my head it’s not far from the truth) and turn it into a fab and edgy place I always wanted it to be (and a few years ago it was)

So I threw out almost everything and left only a few statement pieces I honestly adore and started rebuilding it from scratch. Currently I’m stuck only with one pair of jeans and leggings, which is quite a fun change and all I can say is that I’m enjoying this process and progress immensely.

It’s impossible to put it all in one post because I feel like I could make a book out of it but slowly I will uncover some pieces of the puzzle, I promise.

Don’t ever stop working on yourself, don’t ever hide yourself, fall deeply in love with your life, never apologize for who you are and definitely don’t wait until you’re ready. 

Because life is short and we're hardly ever ready.

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  1. predivne završne riječi:) pretpostavila sam da je neki takav projekt/posao bio u pitanju i da je to razlog stanke. Možda je nezdravo raditi od jutra do ponoći na nekom poslu, ali meni je isto kada nešto radim tako lakše, da stalno radim pauze i da odradim samo po par sati dnevno, imam dojam da bi mi se razvuklo, a i koncentracija bi mi opala, tako da i ja nekako preferiram taj odradi pa se odmori način.

    Meni je isto malo garderoba u krizi, u zadnje vrijeme sve o čemu pričam i mislim je samo uređenje te nove kuće i tu ima sto i jedna sitnica...mada eto planiram uzeti jedan dan idući tjedan i malo očistiti ormar. Mislim da mi to stvarno treba. Odličan je osjećaj krenuti iz početka i izgraditi neki svoj stil, pronaći opet ono što nam se sviđalo...sjećam se kako smo u srednjoj svi bili zagrijani oko toga što ćemo obući, a stvarno mislim da je dobro i zdravo to zadržati i u odrasloj dobi.

    Mislim da se dogodi da nekako izbjegavamo razmišljati o odjeći jer nam se to čini kao još jedna obaveza ili kao dodatan trud, ali zapravo odjeća bi trebala biti tu da nas razveseli, da se osjećamo bolje...kad to tako postavimo, ima smisla misliti o njoj.

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    1. Puno ti hvala! :) U potpunosti se slažem s tobom po pitanju ovih radnih pitanja, ni ja ne volim sav taj posao razlomiti na par sati dnevno, sve te puste pauze i rupe bi me totalno dekoncentrirale i trebalo bi mi stoput više vremena da nešto kvalitetno dovršim, a ovako sjedem i pošteno zapnem i uvijek budem zadovoljna s odrađenim. A i s ovim poslom su rokovi često takvi da naprosto ni nemaš vremena za neki opušteniji način rada, mislim da je i kod tebe veoma slično :D

      Ooo zar selite u novu kuću, jesam nešto propustila pročitati? To su sjajne vijesti u svakom pogledu, ali mogu zamisliti koliko posla i obaveza sad imaš, nadam se da sve ide po planu i veselim se čuti više o kući! To čišćenje ormara ima neku meditativnu vibru, barem meni i to pogotovo sad kad sam napravila drastične rezove, ali ponekad nam baš to treba, čisti početak i ponovno vraćanje nekim svojim korijenima, zar ne? :)

      Odlično si rekla sve za odnos prema odjeći, upravo je to ono u čemu sam zakazala zadnjih par godina, a nikad prije nisam bila takva no to je rezultat više različitih faktora koji su na svu sreću sad iza mene :) Obožavam onaj osjećaj kad otvoriš ormar i sve bi obukla jer ti se toliko sve sviđa i onda krene eksperimentiranje i zabava...tako bi to uvijek trebalo biti :)

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    2. ne znam točno kada selimo jer je kuća još u izgradnji, ali mislim da bi čak mogla biti gotovo prije Božića....u jednu ruku je to nešto prekrasno, a u drugu ruku stresno jer svaki dan treba sto odluka, a i kredit nije neograničen pa se treba ugurati u taj iznos što smo podigli, a stalno neki novi troškovi...ipak to je nešto što se radi jednom u životu, pa ti nije žao potruditi se maksimalno u odabiru i svemu. Znam da će se taj neki dodatan trud isplatiti mada ima dana kada mi je dosta te kuće i najradije bi je prodala za neki mali, a već namještan stan.

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    3. Držim fige da se rok do Božića realizira, to bi vam baš bio sjajan kraj godine! Vjerujem da si sad stalno pod stresom jer sve to djeluje puno jednostavnije nego što stvarno jest, ali kao što si i sama rekla - takve stvari se rade jednom i apsolutno sva muka i trud vrijede, a uopće ne sumnjam da će vam sve ispasti točno kako ste zamislili. Mi stalno pričamo kako bi sve dali da imamo vlastiti stan (kuća mi djeluje kao totalno neostvariva misija), gdje bi sve bilo po našim pravilima i u kojem bi bili maksimalno opušteni no to će sigurno pričekati još koju godinu...ako sve bude dobro posloženo i ako se budemo mogli upustiti u tu investiciju tako da uživaj iako vjerujem da bi u nekim trenucima poslala sve k vragu, ali imati ćeš vlastiti mir i prostor što je apsolutno neprocjenjivo.

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  2. usput famozna mi je ta kombinacija...taj sako je predivan!

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    1. I još jednom ti hvala, to mi je najdraži Pull&Bear-ov sako, uzela sam ga prije koju godinu i nikad nisam požalila :)

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  3. I adore that blazer :) Sounds like you've been doing some exciting stuff even if it does mean you're crazy busy! It's so good to have a clear out sometimes and makes you feel so much more organised with a fresh start - I'm badly in need of one!
    Amy xx
    www.callmeamy.co.uk

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    1. Thanks a lot Amy, I'm glad to hear you like it, that's my favourite blazer! And yes, everything is pretty exciting right now and I'm so looking forward to new adventures and stories! I hope you'll find some free time for the clear out, it always helps putting some things in a fresh perspective! xx

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  4. Love your look here dear....
    http://sepatuholig.blogspot.com
    IG @grace_njio

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  5. Ma bravo! Ja uvijek volim kada se ti ovako "raspojasas" :) Uvijek usijes tu svoju ogromnu kolicinu pozitivne energije prenjeti na nas...na mene barem...i bas mi das onaj neki pozitivni boost! :) Kombica je odlicna i totalno te kuzim kada kazes da ti je trebalo na vracanje odnosno ponovno pronalazenje sebe u svom ormaru! To je super stvar i totalno te kuzim. Ima kombinacija u kojima si sama sebi OK a opet ima onih u kojima se osjecas da osvajas svijet...i zasto onda ne stalno biti u onima u kojima osvajs svijet? Treba to tako i bas se veselim citati sto nam sve spremas :)

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    1. Ma baš ti puno hvala, ubuduće će i biti veći naglasak na tekstovima tako da se nadam da vas neću sve otjerati svojim blebetanjem :) I baš to, zašto stalno šetati u ok kombinacijama kad možeš biti u onima u kojima se osjećaš kao najbolja verzija sebe? Na tome trenutačno radim i budem definitivno detaljnije o svemu pisala u narednim tjednima :) Uživaj u novom tjednu! :*

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  6. Loved this post! It sounds like you have made some really positive changes. I love your outfit here. Gemma x
    www.jacquardflower.uk

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    1. Thanks a lot, I'm glad to hear you liked the post! xx

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  7. Tebe je svakako vredelo čekati <3 I ja baš volim kad se ovak raspišeš, a iako se radi o tvojim stvarima, prosto imam osećaj da se obraćaš baš meni i nekako izokola dotakneš stvari oko kojih se i sama "lomim" ovih dana iako često nemaju direktne veze... Poptuno te razumem za odeću. Zatrpana sam letnjom odećem kojoj definitvno ističe upotreba ovih dana i komadima o kojima mislim sad gde mi je bila pamet :p a da ne ogovorim o tome što se nakanjujem ne znam koliko da i sama ostavim samo ono u čemu se osećam "wow", a ne tek onako ok. Svakako si mi dala dodatnu motivaciju. Uostalom, odeća treba da nam olakša dan i da učini da se osećamo dobro čak i kad je neki loš dan, ne treba nam još i to da nas sputava. Kad smo već kod toga, ta tvoja kombinacija je nešto što ti stoji toliko savršeno da nemam prave reči. Iznova se divim svemu :) Nadam se da ćeš naći neki balans i da nećeš upasti u zamku u koju podrazumeva rad od kuće (mental note i za mene jer mi se desilo više puta da ni ne izađem po 5 dana pa postanem čudoviše i sama sebi i okolini :D Taj dokumentarac tako dobro zvuči. Ja sam "sucker" za takve teme :) Ljubim te i želim ti divnu i produktivnu (i izbalansiranu) nedelju :) :***

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    1. Aaa hvala ti, draga moja, baš mi puno znače ove riječi! <3 Nadam se da ćeš se i ti uspjeti uloviti ukoštac sa sređivanjem svoje ljetne odjeće, sad na početku nove sezone je idealan trenutak za takva velika čišćenja (ne znam zašto, ali ja ih još odmalena volim haha).
      Joj prije sam stalno upadala u tu zamku rada od doma i onda sam si obećala da si to više nikad neću dopustiti tako da nema više rada u pidžami ni nekoj trash odjeći u kojoj se i psu gadim, automatski se bolje osjećam i imam više želje za radom ako sam barem mrvicu sređena pa se sad tome prilagođavam :)) Puseee i uživaj u početku tjedna! :***

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  8. There is nothing wrong with change - especially when it's in improvement on things you may have disliked about who you were, or where you were. Cheers to change - I can't wait to see how it shows on the blog!

    xx

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    1. You're so right, change is a great thing! Thanks a lot, Erika! xx

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  9. Yes, sometimes we have so many ideas and for one reason or another we keep on dragging or life does that for us... I have just discovered your blog and I loved it, I am now following you on Bloglovin. I have also seen a great blogger friend of mine on the comments, Ivana, she is really so lovely, so one more reason to follow you! Hope you have a very nice week!
    DenisesPlanet.com

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    1. Thanks a lot for the kind words, Denise, I'm so glad to hear you like my blog and also Ivana's because she's one of my favourite blogger friends! Can't wait to check out your blog right now! Wishing you a perfect week! xx

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  10. Hello! Another post that I could easily say I find a lot of similarities to myself. I started my style journey a few years ago. Although my clothes do represent me I still feel that it is quite not there yet. I think that inside I am way more colourful and eccentric than my clothes show. I love some pieces but I do not have confidence to wear them. I am very into combining textures, and colours but I do not want to feel silly when I am out. Good luck for both of us! Iga Berry

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    1. I know how you feel, I've been feeling that way for the past few years and now I'm finally ready to start experimenting more and let my clothes truly reflect of my personality, style and aesthetics. I'd love to see you in bolder and more colorful looks as well, I'm sure they would suit you perfectly! I'm keeping my fingers crossed! xx

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  11. Lifeless closet , haha, to zvuči poznato.
    Nisam ispratila pauzu u blogovanju jer proteklih nedelja nisam imala vremena da čitam blogove, ali mi je svakako drago što si nastavila s redovnim objavama.

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