I feel like so many things have changed over the last couple of weeks.
The amount of happiness and love I'm currently feeling is almost too much for words.
But I'm writing anyway.
Right now I'm in Sibenik, my hometown, where I'm spending a few days off from filming before I head back to the charming little Skradin where the majority of our set is. Even though I'm at home and in my PJs, I feel like I haven't left the set at all because there's so much work to be done and days tend to fly by too fast. It's exhausting but brilliant.
When I first got here, I thought I would have a bit more time for my blog but once again life proved me wrong. I barely had time for e-mails and texts and from now on things are gonna get even crazier. But I'm most definitely not complaining, I'm doing what I love the most and this project is absolutely my favourite one ever so I can't wait to be able to share a more detailed info about it sometime in the future (you'll love it, I promise).
In a way I'm still not aware of the fact that October is already a past tense yet we're already heading towards the new year. For me 2016 has been a year filled with different changes and I can confidently say that I'm finally becoming the person who I always wanted to be.
Most of the time that path isn't easy.
In my case, it was a pure hell and there were moments when I wanted to give up, to settle for something a bit easier, less messier, less confusing and challenging. But my dear friends, I could never do that to myself. It would be a form of a suicide so I kept on fighting.
And so can you.
No matter what sort of dreams and hopes you're having, don't ever let them go.
Know your priorities, strenghts and weaknesses, always be fully aware of who you are, why are you doing a certain thing and what bigger goal you're craving your path towards.
There will be moments of fear.
Sometimes you'll face tears.
Life is gonna test you to the bottom of your core but if this journey you're on is all about love, then don't ever give it up. Don't be too hard on yourself because you're doing the best you can. And if you're not doing it, then stop being lazy and get back to work.
Things are, in fact, quite simple.
If you absolutely love it, you'll find a way to do it.
So start doing it.
We're not the same and we'll never be. Some of us want big families, to travel the world, to have insanely expensive clothes, huge houses, awesome jobs. We all focus on different things because our priorities can never be the same but the key to this is to know yourself deeply. To be completely and utterly honest with yourself.
For example, no matter how hard at some moments I might wanna be that person who dreams about having a happy little family, I know that would be the end of me. I never wanted it, ever since I was a little girl and I know in my heart that it'll never change. Because my heart beats in a different direction and that path is making me jump from joy at 5.30 am each morning to get dressed for a long day of filming or editing.
Know yourself, know your priorities and make no compromises for your own happiness.
Because sometimes you can afford to screw up a scene and then film it again, but there's no such thing as getting another chance with life.