Thursday, December 22, 2016

After the last take was filmed...


Yesterday afternoon I arrived to Sibenik with too many things, props and equipment from the filming. Yes, we're done. All 100 episodes have been filmed and I can't wait for the editing phase to continue after the New Year.
For all my Croatian readers, you can sneak peek the Christmas episode on HRTi before it hits the air and HERE is the link. I can't wait to hear you comments! <3

There are so many things I'm looking forward to, I can't even count them all.
But the point is, I've never been happier. Never in my entire life.
Some people around me don't seem to understand it but I have absolutely no intention to apologize for my own happiness. It took me years to find it. A bloody lifetime, to be exact.

While I was brainstorming ideas for this post (with myself, naturally), I found myself feeling a bit weird about publishing a new post after a few weeks of absence. So many things have changed, big big things, and I had no idea how to return to this blog again with all that's going on in my head. But this has always been my 'safe' place (no matter how public it actually is) and the only proper way to continue this ongoing adventure is to keep writing the best way that I can.


There are so many things I want to share with you.
So many amazing things I want to scream about.
But not yet.

I wish I could put down in words everything that has happened over the last three months but there is no right way to do it. It's too overwhelming and we'll take it one step at a time - there will be behind the scenes from the filming and all the changes that have happened in my life as well - work, and non work related.

Christmas is almost here and I don't actually feel a thing.
Mostly it's because this year I've been completely dedicated to the filming and had no proper connection with the real world for months so now I feel a bit lost. There are scented candles and lots of Christmas tunes instead of a big tree and loads of decorations but there are also many new people in my life, festive lunches and dinners in the place where I feel like home (even though it isn't) and travels I'm looking forward to.

The road to self-discovery is a long and tricky one. Sometimes you'll end up in places and situations that will make you feel like that is it, like that's what your life should look like, like that's what you're happy with. But many many times we do that to ourselves out of fear. Screw the comfort zone, screw it.


Fight for what you believe in. For your dreams.
For love.
That amazing, insane, crazy and overwhelming love that makes you do crazy things.
Don't be scared.
Don't burden yourself with what someone might say. This is your life and do everything your way.

And then one night you'll find yourself walking down the hotel corridor, and the sound of Cohen's 'Dance me to end of love' will pierce the walls. You'll get the text from the awesome new friend who says there's a bottle of wine and a plate full of cookies behind the reception for you and even though you know things will never be easy in this profession and you'll never have safety in life, you'll feel so incredibly blessed and beyond happy.

Never stop fighting for those moments.
Life is magical if you allow it to be.


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  1. pogledala sam Lančane čestitke i bile su super...sigurna sam da će spriječit barem jednoga lančanoga čestitara. Meni su uvijek te lančane čestitke bile naporne, ali mislim da kao što je rečeno, neki ljudi toga nisu ni svjesni... misle da uvijek moraju nešto kopirati, a zapravo su najljepše čestitke one iz srca pa makar to bile dvije, tri riječi, nešto tipa sretan Božić živila!..mislim da kada je prava emocije iza poruke, to se uvijek osjeti. Jutros nešto nisam uspjela otvorila link, ali sada mi je uspjelo i bez problema sam pogledala video.

    Ja se isto još nisam uspjela uživiti u Božić, unatoč tome što sam pri kraju s dekoracijama konačno...a danas sam i kolače pravila. Ne znam, ova mi je godina nekako drugačija, ne znam po čemu, osjećam da je neka prekretnica u zraku, pa mi i Božić nekako isti.

    Divno mi je sve što si napisala o tome kako trebamo slijediti snove...nije lako ići nekom neutrnutom stazom pa bilo kakva ona bila..uvijek je lakše odabrati tu neku sigurnost...ali sigurnost je dosadna, a možda i previše na cijeni. Na kraju krajeva, što je više i sigurno? Ne da vjerujem u neke smak svijeta teorije, ali život je kratak i zapravo nemamo puno vremena na raspolaganju.... kako god to okreneš. Treba nam tridesetak godina dok se nekako obrazujemo i malo se snađemo, a vrijeme leti...ako ne sada, onda kada?

    Božić s bakom i didom mi zvuči idealno:)

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    1. Hvala ti, drago mi je čuti da su ti se svidjele! I apsolutno se slažem s tobom, kad je u pitanju iskrena emocija iza poruke, to se naprosto osjeti za razliku od svih onih kružnih spamova iza kojih zapravo ne stoji ništa. Čula sam od još par frendova da jučer u jednom trenutku nešto nije radila njihova stranica, ali na svu sreću nije predugo potrajalo :)

      Meni je ovaj Božić baš jedna velika prekretnica i zato sam sve nekako usporila, stavila u slow motion. Nisam stigla pretjerano srediti stan, ali mi i ne smeta jer sam za blagdane kod babe i dide tako da je atmosfera na katu ispod :) Nadam se da je i tvoja prekretnica u znaku sjajnih i pozitivnih promjena, želim da ti u najboljem mogućem tonu završi ova i započne nova godina! A božićni duh nam ionako nisu samo ukrasi i hrana, to je neko veselje i ljubav koju stalno nosimo sa sobom :)

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    2. baš tako, božićni duh je najbitniji! I ja tebi želim sve najbolje i da se sve nastavi u pozitivnom i sretnom duhu.

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    3. puno ti hvala na lijepim željama, nadam se da si divno provela Božić! sve najbolje ti želim, draga moja! <3

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  2. Uljepšala si mi noć svojom srećom :)

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  3. Kako komentarsati svu tu pozitivnu energiju?! :) Zaitsa, od srca mi je drago što stvari idu u tvom smeru i znam da se takvi momenti ne dese tek tako sami od sebe i da je iza njega čitav jedan život. Svet jeste toliko zatrpan negativnostima i problemima, ali nikako ne smemo da mu se izvinjavamo ako smo srećni niti da dozvolimo da nas nečije mišljenje i sumnje pomere sa puta. Samo grabi sve što ti život pruža i uživaj u svakom trenutku. Za njih vredi živeti, a zona komfora je tu samo kad nam treba maleni predah od jurnjave ka snovima ;) :* <3 <3 <3

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    1. Jooj draga moja, hvala ti na ovako lijepom komentaru, i tvoja pozitiva pršti iz svake napisane rečenice :) <3 <3 Šaljem puno pusa i nadam se da uživaš u blagdanima! :*

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  4. I am so, so happy for you. You have accomplished so much this year lovely, and it seems that that momentum will continue into the new year as you begin the editing process. Cheers to accomplishing your goals and achieving your dreams!

    xx

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    1. Aww Erika, thank you so much for these kind words, you always say the nicest things! <3 Happy holidays! :*

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  5. Divan tekst :) Pršti tom tvojom pozitivnom energijom i toliko mi je godilo sad pročitati nešto ovako da ti ne mogu opisati :) hvala! i svaka čast što se hrabro boriš za ono što voliš i želiš :) Oduševljena sam!

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    1. Joj puno ti hvala, draga moja, strašno si me razveselila ovim divnim riječima! Hvalaaa ti! <3 <3

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  6. Yaaay you finished! What an incredible experience and journey it must have been! You must be so pleased with everything you've done this year - here's to even more exciting things next year!
    Amy xx
    www.callmeamy.co.uk

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