2017 started in the most amazing way for me and I can't even begin to describe how grateful and lucky I feel. Each time I look at myself in the bathroom mirror I see this happy girl looking back at me and after not having her around for many, many years it feels so amazing to be back.
A few days ago, before the NYE madness, I decided to skip on one usually very important tradition of mine - buying a Moleskine daily planner and bought their red notebook instead. Why the sudden change, you may ask?
Well, after years and years of trying to plan out EVERYTHING, the good old life taught me that most things simply cannot be planned. Especially in this crazy profession of mine where projects and jobs tend to change faster than the speed of sound. One day you have something, the next it might be gone for good.
Instead I started to write down wishes and hopes for the new year.
Not over the top ones, but those little things my heart really, truly wants.
And I've decided to leave several blank pages so that my list can grow with time.
So many people around me tend to discuss this new beginning as something that requires a new you. And that's why I'm so against resolutions. Most of the time it happens to turn out that those things aren't actually what you want for yourself, but what media and so many others tell you should want for yourself. Bollocks. Don't read those headlines. Use your own head and think for yourself. No one knows you better than you.
Stop telling me to join the gym. I won't.
Stop forcing me to eat healthier. My food is just fine as it is.
Stop telling me I should save money to buy an aparment. I'm happy this way.
Stop telling me I should say yes when all I want is to scream no. I won't listen.
Stop telling me what love should look like, what amazing sex looks like and how I should let someone know I love him. I have my own ways, thank you.
For 2017 I want, need and will work on HAPPINESS. On a daily basis.
Crazy happiness. LOVE. So much love.
I want to be able to feel every second of my life. Every second of a day.
I want to be more present.
I want to love with all my heart.
I want to laugh. Even when things don't go as planned.
I honestly want to fall deeply in love with life.
Because, the moment you start going in that direction, everything else starts to fall into a place.